Discipline and focus

Yesterday I came across a post on Facebook which really hit me. It was “Clutter is no just physical stuff. It’s old ideas, toxic relationships and bad habits. Clutter is anything that does not support your better self.” There’s a lot to unpack, but I’m going to deal with what hit me out of that quote.

I’m awesome at something. I do really great at it. It’s a talent that I have.....but I don’t want to be that way anymore. What am I awesome at? Being focused, successful and disciplined for a short period of time. And then I fall completely off the wagon. Whether that’s exercise, practicing music, composing music, being organized and cleaning up regularly, blogging, and more....I’m awesome at being focused and doing great for short, maybe 2-4 week spurts....and then for whatever reason, I quit. I stop.

So how does it change? That’s the struggle. Of course the easy answer is, “suck it up buttercup”. But that only goes so far.  So what changes? What is different? I wish I could say there is a magic bullet that if you do this one thing, everything falls into place. Ain’t gonna happen. What it is going to take is a plan, focus and consistency.

So how do I exercise more? Well, back on about Ash Wednesday (February 14th) I quit walking. Why? I chose sleeping in. This morning, that changed. I got up and took the dog for a walk, even though it was cold (for Texas) and it’s going to be a long day. That’s even more reason for me to do it.

How do I practice more? I calendar it. And I stick to that calendar. This is one of the hardest ones because throughout my week, my schedule isn’t always “regular”. There may be meetings that come up, funerals to practice for (that’s happened the last 2 weeks after Easter) and more. So it’s a matter of doing my best and when I’m practicing, focusing on using that time as well as I can.

How do I compose more? That’s easy. Just do it. Actually, the laptop I’ve used to compose is a few years old and it’s run slowly....which, of course, works great when you’re fantastic at making excuses. Of course I made excuses to not do anything because of schedule, computer being slow, and really, honestly, what the answer is, I was scared. Composing music puts you out there. You’ll get plenty of rejections, non responses or tepid encouragements. I’ve gotten plenty of all of them. But I feel called to be a composer, so the only way I can call myself a composer is......to do it.

How do I get and stay organized and keep the house clean. Funny, right? Well, yesterday was my oldest’s 9th birthday. We got the house (and her room) cleaned. So, keeping up shouldn’t be too hard. It’s about doing a few things each night after the girls go to bed. Of course, moving (as we’re hoping to) will lead to even more of a focus and attention to organization, what needs to stay or go, etc.

And finally, blogging.....how do I do it regularly? Just like doing things before bed, I sit down and write out posts. Whether that’s going to be daily or a few days a week, that remains to be seen. But in a previous blog incarnation, I planned out the month coming up and topics to write about. That helped to keep me focused. With this blog, I haven’t. I’ve basically been spitballing, throwing things against the wall, and been unplanned.....and yet you still read it. So thanks for that! I know that I’m capable of giving you better ideas and information than I have in the past, and I look forward to doing it.

How about how? Where do you struggle with discipline and focus? What habits are you wanting to adjust, change or drop completely? Comment with those habits!

Week 5 check in

I could subtitle this post “The new me”. Or I could subtitle it “You’re not defined by your mistakes”. Read on and I’ll explain. I blew it last night. I ate horribly. I’m guessing many of you are waking up feeling that way. The “old me” would have wallowed in self-pity, made excuses and ate some more. Most definitely wouldn’t have exercised. Today, I got up at 4:30, walked the dog, ran a bit, and have been drinking water. While yes, I didn’t eat great for 1 meal....it’s just that. 1 meal out of 21 for the week. See, this is where my thinking has radically changed. I had eggs for breakfast yesterday, I had a salad for lunch. I budgeted to eat badly. And I did. But, that doesn’t define my week. In fact, it pushes me to be even more on track. I had my meal of overindulgence. It was good. Now back to eating right.

So how about you? Maybe January wasn’t the best. Or your February isn’t off to the best start. You can fix it. You can start now. Because it’s about the choices you make.

I realized I didn’t share with you my goals for February. So my main goal in January, the Whole30, was a success. My goal for February is to continue to follow the guidelines, eating right and trying to add in more exercise. I started the couch to 5K app last week and while I’m doing a 5K on Saturday, I’m not going to be able to run all of it, but my main goal is to run the 5K I’m doing on April 7th. That’s one I’m working toward. My other stuff goal is two fold. I didn’t quite finish in the garage in January, but our youth at church are having a garage sale, so I can take stuff up there. Along with that, I want to tackle the office. It’s a mess. So that’s my 2 main goals for February.

So where are you at this week? Has your 2018 been off to a great start? We’re only 5/52 into the year, so you’ve got time. Get after it!

Oh, something random I decided to do last week. I recorded some music I’ve been working on and uploaded it to Noisetrade.com. You can listen to it for free or download it for free there. http://noisetrade.com/craigharmann/lent-and-easter-demos

Whole30 wrapup

There have been a million ways that have gone through my head as to how to begin this post. But I’ll start here: Minimalism is fashionable, trendy and hip right now, especially in regard to stuff. And I’ve written plenty about relationships to stuff. But really, the primary thing that matters in minimalism is you. And if you’re not taking care of yourself, the stuff really doesn’t matter. So this is why I started the Whole30 diet on January 2nd....which means today is DAY THIRTY!!

Before I dive into the diet and my review, a bit of my backstory. To be absolutely honest (and there will be real talk here), I had an addiction to food. Food was my friend. Food never laughed at me, never let me down, and was always there for me. When I was younger, I kept moving, riding my bike, playing sports, but that problem was lurking below the surface. Cookies, ice cream, seconds on meals, all of that was there. But, in my physical activity, I was burning plenty of it off. And of course, then came.....the dreaded HUSKY size jeans. And then when I started high school, I went from 175 my freshman year to 225 my senior year.....and it wasn’t from hitting the weights. It was hitting the TWENTY piece chicken nuggets and super sized fries from McDonalds when I was in musicals my junior and senior years of high school. It was giving up completely on exercise and becoming sedentary. College was worse. A cafeteria where you could eat as much as you want? YES PLEASE! It was a fat boy’s dream. I had Mountain Dew for breakfast, lunch and dinner (literally) desserts and other food galore. I went from 225 to 275 when I graduated. But all of that paled in comparison to what happened between graduating college and living on my own. The highest I saw on the scale was 330. But I’m sure it was higher. I’d eat 2 frozen pizzas, chase it with a container of ice cream and be happy. I’d eat a dozen donuts for breakfast. And so on. I’m embarrassed to see this all typed out in front of me. But that was who I was. Once I got married, we started to make healthier choices and because we were having trouble getting pregnant, we both started the South Beach Diet. Which led to 2 beautiful daughters. What has happened over the past 14 years is that I’ve lost 15 pounds, gained 10, lost 10, gained 15, lost 20, gained 10. Back and forth.

In the fall, I really started focusing in on exercise, specifically walking. I was feeling great, eating pretty healthy (minus the bags of tortilla chips here and there in an evening) and was making progress. Then December hit. While I didn’t hit the sweets too hard, I stopped exercising. And by the end of December, I felt horrible. I needed to do something different. I turned 40 in September, and my dad passed away last March. I had to start getting really serious about my health so that I can be there, God willing, for my girls and grandchildren. I had friends that had done Whole30 and I started looking into it.

How to describe Whole30? Crazy, insane, stringent, amazing, life-changing and beneficial. The simplest way to describe it is that you can eat meat, fruit, veggies, and spices. You don’t get to eat beans, peanuts, grains, dairy, or alcohol. And it’s all about looking at the labels of food. No added sugar, no added anything. Have you read labels? Do you know how much junk is added to our food? For example, I love bacon. And it’s allowable, without sugar....And most bacon has BROWN sugar added to it!! I broke down and tried turkey bacon, and in the end, I just got ground turkey, seasoned it with homemade taco seasoning, and added that to my eggs for breakfast. AMAZING!!

Now to the details. On January 1st, I stepped on the scale and weighed 280.6 pounds. This morning, 31 days later, I weighed 260.2 pounds. TWENTY POINT SIX POUNDS LOST! I can’t believe it. And yes, my clothes fit better. Clothes that I couldn’t fit into, or were tight, now fit comfortably. I have to wear a belt daily. I’ve had people tell me regularly that I’m looking really good and that I’m losing weight....although I did shave my beard in early January and no said anything about that! :-) But over and above the scale, here’s the biggest and best takeaways. I feel amazing. I am more focused. I am less tired. I have accomplished a lot over this month. I feel creative. My relationship with food has been readically changed.  And this is the exact opposite of how I felt at the end of December, just 1 month ago. And that’s been with minimal exercise. However, over the past 3 days (including today), I’ve started the couch to 5K app and have seen my time per mile go from between 17-18 minutes, to 15 minutes, 14:58 and 14:40 over the first 3 days.

Do I recommend Whole30 to everyone? Nope. It’s your choice. It’s very restrictive. I had people telling me, “Day 4 is going to be the hardest. You’re going to have a crash”. I didn’t. It went a whole lot easier that I thought it would. I thought giving up dairy would be hard. I grew up in Wisconsin. I love cheese. But I didn’t miss it. Probably the one thing I’ve missed over the 30 days is beer. But even that, I survived without.

So now what? Do I go back to what I ate before? Of course not. I’ll slowly be adding in certain things. One beer is first tomorrow. I’ll have a smoothie on Monday with Greek yogurt. Down the road, I’ll probably add in more things, but I’ll definitely be looking at the label.  I don’t want to go back to the way I felt before. I want to keep this feeling. Ultimately, I’d like to be between 200-225 pounds, so I still have more weight to lose. But as the weather warms up and I continue to walk/run the dog and do more yard work outside, I don’t see that being a problem.  So go check out Whole30 and see if it’s for you!

Week 4 check in

Wow! We’re 4 weeks into the new year! How have your goals and resolutions gone? Did they go by the wayside? Or are you still going strong?

For me, with my primary goal, it couldn’t be better. I’ll give a more detailed wrap up of Whole30 in my post on Wednesday, but I feel amazing. My clothes fit and people at church yesterday said I should be called “The shrinking man” and “Slim”. I don’t know if I’d go that far.....yet, but I do notice a difference. I have plenty more to go, but slow and steady wins the race. Except that my slow and steady plan of losing 8 pounds by now (2 pounds per week) was totally blown out of the water by losing 16.6 pounds. Now, I knew I’d probably lose more than 8, but had I made my goal 20 pounds, I’d be frustrated and probably quit, because I “failed”. Nevermind that I’ve lost weight, clothes that I couldn’t wear now fit comfortably. My psyche would have told me that I missed my goal and I was a failure. That’s what my friend Jon Acuff talks about in his book “Finish”. When you’re setting goals, you want to have your goal, then cut it in half. When you feel like you’re beating that goal, it helps motivate you to continue on. But the Whole30 has helped immensely with that. More on that on Wednesday.

As for my garage project, that didn’t get much done on it this week. But it has definitely improved since the 1st of the year. There is less stuff and more space to walk around out there. And there has been progress inside the house as well, because of the colder weather outside. But there’s lots to do as we have our deadline to be out of this house by the end of June. Plenty will get done! It will just take the same process as losing weight. Slow and steady.

So how about you? What were your goals for this month? What are your goals for next month? What’s your plan to be successful? Mine are to lose 8 more pounds, and to bring order and decluttering to our home office, which is a total catch-all space. Comment with what you’re going to be working on or your success story from the past 4 weeks!

Week 3 check in

Here we are. Week 3. 21 days since January 1st. Things seem like they’ve flown by. So how are you doing with your resolutions/goals? Still keeping up? We’re almost there, so keep going strong!

For me, the Whole30 has been exactly what I needed. I’ve got only 9 days left, and it’s made so many changes. On the scale, I’m down 4.6 pounds since last Monday, and down 16.2 pounds for the month so far. My goal was 2 pounds a week, so according to my goal, I should be down 6 pounds. This weekend was the biggest challenge for me, which I met with flying colors. I went to my mom’s Friday afternoon and came back Saturday. Traveling is usually the time where I want to be snacking. So I took along diet friendly snacks, and made it just fine. Once I got to my mom’s I got some steak and potatoes, and made my dinner, breakfast and lunch on Saturday. And it was great! The off the scale things have been so much more. I have so much more energy throughout the day. My clothes fit better. I’ve had to tighten my belt....as well as regularly wear a belt! I’m excited to get up in the mornings. I’ve had many people come up to me and say that I’m looking good. Overall, this journey has been off to a huge start. And that’s been my priority for this year. When we’re talking about minimalism, the primary focus many go to is stuff. And that’s important. But if you’re not taking care of you, you won’t have the mental or physical energy to deal with the stuff, and most importantly, you may not be around to deal with the stuff.

For the physical stuff, this week I didn’t really get much done in the garage. This week was messed up. Martin Luther King Jr. holiday on Monday, followed by no school Tuesday and Wednesday, along with ice and cold. I did get a good bit done in the garage on Monday, and got my bags of pine needles out of the garage on Friday. So it’s looking much better, but there’s still more work to do. Which I’ll get to this afternoon. But we were able to get things done inside the house while we were stuck inside for a little while. It’s all about progress and making baby steps.

Keep up work on your goals! We’re almost there! Comment with how you’re doing!

Week 1 check in

It’s been a week into the New Year. How are your goals going? Still crushing them? Feeling a little stagnant? They’re totally blown?

Here’s how mine are going. First goal was to lose 2 pounds per week. So, last Monday morning, I stepped on the scale. 278.6. Fairly typical. I have resided anywhere between 270-290 over the past 3 or so years. Not good. I started the Whole30 diet for the month of January, so that started on the 2nd. Over the past week, I have felt amazing. The Whole30 diet is insane, but it’s a reset. No beans, no dairy, nothing processed or added. It’s forced me to look at labels and plan a whole lot more. But the food I have eaten in the past week has tasted amazing. And so, when I stepped on the scale this morning. 271.4. Down 7.2 pounds in a week. My goal was 2. I figured that with starting a new diet, and something this intense (and drinking a LOT of water), I’d probably lose more than 2 pounds. But, 2 pounds was my goal. So, why didn’t I say 4 or 5 pounds, especially for this first week? Well, our bodies can do strange things, and what happened if my goal was 5 pounds....and I lost 2. I’d feel like I failed and giving up would be a whole lot easier. But, I’ve absolutely crushed my goal. Do I expect to lose 30 pounds by the end of the month? Nope. Only 8. Because that’s my goal.

My second goal was to spend the month of January focused on the garage. It’s a disaster area. Well, the first step was to get the Christmas decoration boxes out of there. And in a couple of hours, those will be back in their storage space above the house. So that’s a good first step. Then I’ll spend a bit of time this afternoon on the Amazon and other boxes that threw up in the front of my garage. Every bit of extra time I have, that is where I am going to focus. Not just on organizing the junk that is out there, but figuring out what is needed and beneficial.

That’s it. My goals for the month of January. Comment on how you’re doing with your goals!

Minimalizing yourself

While stuff takes priority for many of us when we’re talking about minimalism, there are also other things, like yourself, that need attention. Today’s post is about just that.

Just like with your stuff, you need to have a plan and focus, eating right and exercising needs a plan and focus. And when you lose that focus, it’s hard to get back on track. And the biggest thing that all of us face is that it’s easy to be unhealthy. If you look at the cheaper foods in the grocery store....it’s all of the processed, unhealthy food. But whole food that is healthier and unprocessed, costs more. So, yes, to eat healthy and making good choices costs in terms of money as well.

What do you do? The biggest thing I’ve done is drink more water. Water is cheap, healthy and makes a huge difference in our lives. It clears up skin issues, helps to make you feel fuller, and gives you more energy throughout the day. From there, what diet you do is really a matter of what works best for you. If you like meat, don’t give it up. If you like carbs, eat less of them, and eat whole grains, but you don’t need to give it up completely. The whole thing in this is that you need to enjoy food, so eating things you don’t like or don’t want to eat isn’t going to give you long term success.

So what about exercise? It is a good thing! It can be as simple as buying a good pair of walking shoes to buying a whole bunch of expensive exercise equipment. Whatever you choose, exercise helps to deal with stress, give more energy, help you lose weight, and much more. When you connect regular exercise to eating properly, you will start to see progress!

One final thing. What about when you get off track? It happens more often than we like.  Do you beat yourself up over it? Give up altogether? Of course not! It happens, and you just get back on track and get back to work. But many times when we get off course, we give up or start beating ourselves up and that doesn’t help to fix the problem. If you eat a few too many Christmas goodies, drink a few glasses of water, eat some fruit and some veggies and go for a walk! Most importantly, don’t give up!